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I have a live journal? No way?!

Tonight was a great night!
Went to the game and hung out with everyone afterwards. Even though Case did lose miserably...
But hey it feels really good to hang out with people again. Feels like things are getting better.

Saw an interesting license plate tonight right Jenn and Stacy? WOTEVR lol. Some people are just odd lol. But yeah lata.

-Tim

So, I had a long conversation with Jenn tonight. A very long conversation.

We both realized that we've lost contact with people we once called best friends. We also realized that there is no way to put blame on any one person. We looked at the major breaks in "the group" and realized that they were all caused by petty drama that really has no point. Also came to the conclusion that the petty drama developed from people doing the "she said, he said thing" where nothing anyone says is completely true.

Another part of our conversation is that neither of us really want to end this year in a fight with someone, or with hard feelings. We aren't really sure how to accomplish this, but we're damn sure that we're gonna try.

But this week has been 50/50 as far as good vs. bad goes.
I hung out with Rachel, who I haven't hung out with in like forever. It was fun, should do it more often. I also went to V-ball senior night; despite what she says, Rachel really did amazing.

And the bad... well, It's interesting, thats for sure. But at this point, the good stuff that happened this week definitely outweighs the bad. =)

In the past year, I've realized the life is very fragile. You don't comprehend how fast it can go until one night you're standing in a McDonald's parking lot, laughing and talking to your friends that are like your family and then the next night have one gone forever and the other fighting for his life.

Ryan Pavao and Jared Cantin are my brothers. It's hard for some to understand the bond firefighters share with each other. We put our lives in each others hands and trust each other. When suddenly the life we're holding fades we are left with little to hold on to.

Ryan was on his way to making an excellent firefighter. He had just graduated from Diman and had a girlfriend (also a firefighter) Danielle. He will be missed greatly as not only a friend, but a brother.

Jared is currently fighting for his life at Rhode Island Hospital. He was in the car with Ryan when they crashed. Jared is a senior at Diman and also was on his way to becoming a full firefighter.

Please pray for them both. Pray for my brothers.

Rest in Peace Ryan 8/24


-Tim

So yeah i havn't updated in a while... because really i havnt had a reason to do so until now... but yeah people have been asking me what happened between me and Rachel and im just gonna post it because i really dont want to go through it 500 times...

But yeah We broke up... technically... she doesnt have alot of free time and the time she has she should be able spend with her friends without having to worry about not being with her boyfriend or feeling guilty. I agree with this fully and respect it... as far as i know... this is the main reason that we broke up for the summer... some people are saying there are other reasons and stuff... but i really dont know... i know some people are saying that she broke up with me because i was too clingy... but im almost positive that, that wasn't a huge reason... but i could be wrong... but after the summer is over... i still like her alot and i would like to get back with her... i know im getting yelled at by people because im waiting, but its my choice and i feel that shes worth waiting for so please out of repect to myself... stop trying to convince me otherwise. I know its not definate that we will get back together but i'm hopefull and i really want a chance... so i leave you with this explanation.

So besides this... I am going for my licence on the 11th of July... wish me luck... and yeah besides that... my life is pretty uneventfull... well.. almost... my grandma did get rushed to the hospital yesterday for chest pains but i think shes ok... and o yeah i got a great piece of news the other day... not... i cant really talk about it through this post because its a medical thing and i really dont want everyone knowing but yea but thats pretty much all the events in my life lately... If you have any questions feel free to ask...

A guy gets pulled over for speeding 88 MPH in a 45 zone. The cop
askes for his drivers license and the guy says, "I'm sorry
officer, but my license was suspended after my 5th DUI."

The cop askes for his registration and the guy says, "It's in
the glove compartment, but it's not in my name because I stole
this car in a car jacking and I killed the woman that owns the
car and stuffed her in the trunk and the gun I used is in the
glove compartment. At this point the cop tells the guy to keep
his hands in sight and he radios for back-up.

When a supervisor shows up, the cop tells him the story and he
walks up to the guy in the car. The supervisor asks to see the
guy's drivers license and the guy hands it over and it is valid
with the guys real name and information.

The supervisor asks for the registration and the guy says, "It's
in the Glove compartment." The supervisor tells the guy to keep
his hands in sight and walks around to the passenger side and
opens the glove compartment. There is the registration in the
guys name and everything seems in order.

Next the supervisor asks the guy to get out and open the trunk.
The guy opens the trunk and the only thing there is a spare tire.

At this point the supervisor tells the guy what the other cop
had told him. The guy says "I'll bet that lying S.O.B. told you
I was speeding too!"

George W. Bush was president in the 21st century not the 20th.

Your IQ Is 120

Your Logical Intelligence is Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

First off i hate ms. leahy!!! Ok i feel better now that i got that off my chest. And while we are on the topic off science i have the answers to tomorrows test of anyone wants them. And of course by anyone i mean anyone who is important.

School was eventfull today... I started off with Study and ended with basically a free period so i was happy. Events in school wernt so happy... to tell you the truth im in the dark on what is going on exactly... all i know is that i spilled cherry cancer water all over myself at lunch and got dissed by jamie when he said that i wore nice shirts! lol jk.

But yea im having pizza for dinner and that makes me happy. i bet your jealous!

Track is almost over! but then again i dont think it will be really over because i have to keep running during the off season.

and now a riddle cuz im bored...

From the secret world he came,
Upon this life to settle.
A friend of every enemy,
With him forever to stay.
Dies when the sun sets,
Alive when the cock awakes,
Tall when the burning disk is beyond the hills,
Short when he shares you your lunch.
Who is it?

Tim

Today was kinda crappy.... ok it was really shitty for the most part.

The only good thing was that i got to eat ice cream 6th period for the NLE.
But for the most part it sucked...
I feel like shit I really do. I hate it when people are mad at me, especially when they wont let me talk about it with them. Ive been in a wierd mood lately and its starting to freak me out. Its the same feeling that I had like 2 years ago. I really cant say what is causing it... i can name a few things that are not helping it though. Fortunately half of one problem is solved (thank you josh). But anyways i really want to like go die or something but i wont because people would kill me if i did. But yea im gonna go try to fix the other half of a problem... wish me luck.

LaSalle

So yea its been a few since ive updated. Thx to my computer... Im gonna just start at Friday.
Friday- At night I went to Stacys party with Kate Josh Rachel Matt Anne Nick Laura Jenn and Gabby n' Alex (They are basically one word), and of course Stacy. It was a blast we watched National Treasure and Phantom of the Opera. Then we had pizza and ice cream cake. Kate brought some iced coffee so of course i had to partake of that.

Saturday- it rained... I had to go get my tux fit for the wedding (no not my wedding... i know someone will ask me if i dont put this.) Then i went over Kates house and we uh... watched tv... and then we went to the movies with the group of people listed above minus anne and rachel plus pat. Rachel couldnt go because of a bar mitzvah (I Love that word!). Then after the movies i went back to Kates house because i cant get enough of her. :D I Love U!

Sunday- This was the day from Hell!!! I hate when my family gets together!!! It sucked alot and it gave me issues that i need to work out. Fortunately i had Josh and Kate to turn to (I seriously wouldnt know what to do without you guys, Thanks alot!) So yea i talked to josh and then talked to Kate for the rest of the night.

Today- Yea... Today was ok for the most part... I still have those issues to deal with and they certainly dont make life easier... I only wish i could run away or something. But anyways i had a track meet but the weather sucked and so did i. To make it worse I ended up having a low blood presure attack after I ran... nothing big just dizziness, stomach pains, and a wicked nasty headache, complete with moments of vision imparing black dots... the only thing that i can say is that im glad i have my friends to help me through shit like this

Yea so whats up with that? I havnt seen a Jello comercial in like a million years. It was like J-E-LL-O its alive and shit. I kinda miss it... you could be like H-E-LL-O hiiii... or something. But yea...

My day was interesting...
In the mornin i started off bummed because i really wanted my past to be forgotten, but its apparant that im not allowed to forget it. I was really stupid yes i was and i made some bad desicions... ok alot of them. But ever since that part of my life has been over, im just going to call it the Katie era, ive been happier. I know at first i was bummed but then it really started to get better after the semi. I give alot of thanks to Josh, Jenn, Stacy, Kate, Rachel, Ashley (all of them), Matt, Laura, Gabby Brum, and Alex for forcing me to go. And i give alot of thanks to those people again and Jamie, Matt Z, Patrick^2 and others (sorry but the list would go on forever) for really helping me get to the point i am now. *I owe my life to these people.* And all i have to say to those who continually bring my past to the present i am just asking you to stop. Everyone knows who i was but they also know who i am now. And i know my friends dont care who i was they just care about me now. The past is the past, whats done is done, i cant change what ive done and whats happened, the only thing i can do is live my life. And id like to live it without the fighting without pain and id like to live it happy.

In Sports news...
Case boys track team won their meet over Fairhaven today.
Personally i came in 2nd in the 400m with a time of 58.6 and my relay team placed 1st!
This brings me to 11.50 points!!! I am now the highest scoring freshman on the team and i now have earned my varsity letter.

Just because i dont have anything else to say...

1. Who are you, what's our relationship?
2. How and where did we meet?:
3. What's my middle name?:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. When you first saw me, what was your impression and do you still feel that way?:
6. what Color are my eyes
7. Do I have any siblings?:
8. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
9. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
10. Describe me in 3 words:
11. Do you think I'm good looking?:
12. How would you describe me to someone?:
13. Would you ever date me?:
14. Have we ever gotten in a fight?:
15. Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?:
19. What makes me happy?:
20. What makes me sad?:
21. What reminds you of me?:
22. If you could give me anything, what would it be?:
23. When's the last time you saw me?:
24. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
25. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
27. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
28. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
29. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?:

Well today ive finished my latin project and ate... now im waiting until 3 o clock for guitar lessons (right in the middle of the day) Im hopin that i can go somewhere afterwords.
I have no clue what else to write about. Im sure people are dieing to find out what happened last night, but im just gonna say we watched tv.

The following are lyrics dedicated to my friends who are going through tough times right now.

This world is one big circle… everything’s the same… no matter where you go everyone has pain… No matter who’s body you live in or how much stuff you own… You still feel alone… on your own…

Everyone wants death… but you’ve got to live with what you’ve got… its your only shot…give it all you’ve got… No matter who wants to kill you… how much you want to die… You’ve got to survive…got to stay alive…

With red circles `round my eyes and death within my cries… I am still here…not gonna disappear… With no pulse or respiration, a dying sensation… I will live on to write another song…

You say death is knocking at your door… open it its got much more…You are dead wrong…A life without your loved ones a life without your friends, cant even make amends…

Formula, two plus two, algebra I got no clue… The answers not death so common take a breath… Give your mind some needed rest think about you at your best… just forget the rest…

The answer to all your fears… the answer to a hundred years…sitting in your mind all time… so get on up and start to rhyme… your answers will come when your song is done…

So live your life while its here…don’t turn around and have no fears… you’ve still got many years… Put down all the razor blades ditch the drugs and forget drug raids… forget the past forget the laids… make this song your turning point… never think about another joint… Life is here and life is now so never think about death and make a living vow……

The following are lyrics to an unmade song.
Written By Yours Truely.

*Suicidal Resurrection*

As he stepped into the darkness, on a winter night
The wind began howl and frost began to bite
As he looked up into the moonlight he saw its evil glare
As he looked out into the shadows he felt its evil stare

The cold steel was numb in his fingers and the blade was bare
As he looked around for someone, someone who wasn’t there
As he carved his lovers name in a bloody red
From deep inside his wounds the bleakish color bled

Not a soul was lurking, all the creatures slept
As he sat there down in the darkness wet from tears he wept
He dreamed of a life without sadness, dreamed of a life without drear
Dreamed of a life without madness, dreamed without fear

As his mind came saddened and his wits he began to cull
His blade of his mighty talon brandished and dull
As his heart stopped running in his blood soaked shirt
He fell back under the moonlight
--Damned because of moonlight—
As he lay there dead in the moonlight, rain began to fall


As she stepped into the sunlight, on a winter day
The sun shone through and a breeze on the ray
As she looked up into the sunlight she saw its morning look
As she looked onto the people a mourning site she took

The cold pang was numb through her fingers and the fear was clear
As she called through the town yard, her love was not there
As she looked onto the casket with her lover name
From deep inside her heart she found the pain

Not a sound was spoken and not a sound in the hall
As she sat down by his casket voice hoarse from her terror call
As she dreamed of her long lost lover dreamed of her newly dead
Dreamed of time with each other dreamed inside her head

As her mind clouded and sadden she rested on the casket hull
Her color of her mighty hands bleakish and dull
As heart was broken and tears rolled down her shirt
Her tears splashing the coffin
--Her life lie in the coffin—
As her tears splashed upon the coffin a gasp within the hall
For he woke upon the splashing
Blood and water mashing
As they walk off into the sunlight
--Born again within the sunlight—
As they walked off into the sunlight forever will they go

-End
Comments Please.

Yea so i got back from my trip (finally)... well actually i got back sunday morning but i havnt updated till now. The total driving time of the trip was 60 hours. Fortunately we stopped at hotels and didnt have to drive straight through. Yea i dont feel like describing my whole vacation because I dont wanna type alot so i will just recap today. Today started off as any other. It didnt go too badly. Started off with spanish but thats a whole other set of issues. I went to the library to do latin and such with Kate and Lindsey during bubble. The rest of the day was pretty much uneventfull except for when Kristi started to kill josh in the middle of the hallway... very interesting to watch ya know. Yea so i went to track and me Pat (Brian) Fam and Matt Z. Threw shot and then i taught Fam how to throw discuss (unfortunately i taught him well and hes better than me). O yea i found out that Kate and Jenn got a pic of the team doing high knees lol. But yea so then i worked out with Fam and went home and then went to the Borges residence to work on a project. We didnt get much done but it was fun. So yea then im here tryin to sort through some of my own issues in my head.

-LaSalle

P><S I missed all of you!!!

Yes its sad and true... This will be my last post for 10 day. (I will make it good) So today started off as any other day... boring. I went throught the first half of the day half asleep. Then I had Latin where I texted Sara. Then i moved on to math which was dull. Then I tried to go to the library but mrs luca was playin secretary in the office. So i had to actually go to health class! I sat there talked with Steph and Ashley Bryant along with Sara Hingo and Mags. After school was fun i hung out with Josh and Jenn and Kate and Brad. It was funny... we managed to drop Kate on her head and then Brad ran away with her cell phone. Then I had a track meet... I managed to blow the 2nd heat away in the 100m but 2nd heat doesnt score so yea. Then I ran 1st leg in the 4x100 relay and we won, making it a tie against borne (analmen)
So after that I went to guitar lessons and then packed for vacation. Later I talked to Sara and then wrote this. Now I will give shout outs to my peers and amigos and amigas.

Sara- I hope you have a fun time at the Boston Marathon and I wish your cousin luck. I still think you should run it though! I will miss you alot and I will try to call you during my trip. I hope you have a good vacation.. get some rest and I cant wait to see you when I get back. I will get somthing for you even though you will tell me not to.

Jenn- Have a nice relaxing vacation and dont worry about anything. Take time to rest and if you have tennis practice or matched kick ass!

Kate- Dont rape anyone... Same thing apllies to you for tennis... Kick Ass.

Josh- Be nice to people and dont be soo violent... I hope you have a relaxed vacation that lets you sleep until when ever and aloows you to spend some quality time with you llamas and alpacas...dim wit. (have fun with the grl you got a hug from even thought you never told me who it was!)

(This could take a while)

Stacy- Have fun on vacation and dont get to drunk or anything on the cruise. I want you to be able to remember everything that happened and not just have blurry acounts... Lol you know im just kidding but seriously have fun

Rachel- Have a good vacation and kick ass in softball. You are surley the future of Case softball and i bet you can beat Elisa anyday. And when we get back you really have to teach me some Espanol proque mi no comprede.

Matt Borges numero uno- Dont get hurt...

Steph- Have fun and stay clean... just because you dont have aids now doesnt mean it cant happen! Have fun with Coach suez gl with your meets!

Mags- Have fun with track... im sure she will try to kill you all at practice and have fun in SC!

Jamie- Have fun without me bro! Go hang with Fam and Simas and stay away from the gay people. eat lots of doughnuts and get some sleep.

Laura- Have fun with your ants. And have fun at track.

(Still going)

Hingo- Have fun with the twins. Stay safe and go for a run (w/out the soccer ball)

Ashley Bryant- Have fun with track and stop hitting people... its not nice

Ashley Durette- Have a relaxing vacation and sleep late.

Sara nd Perti- Have a fun vacation together and tell me all about track when i get back!

Shayna- Have fun with softball and such and relax

Megan- Read A tale of Two Cities and I hope you actually found your book and stuff

Joce nd Chris- Have a great vacation together and I hope you guys go out alot and do stuff but keep it clean. lol jk

And im done i think... If i forgot anybody I am really sorry im just so tired by now i cant think straight! But you should know what i would say to you so yea...

So today started of sluggish. i was soo bored and tired it wasnt even funny. Took a science test 3rd period and talked to Sara via text and then did horrible on a library skills quiz 4th period. Then I had lunch and then had to suffer throught spanish. Latin we watched a movie well they watched a movie, i texted Sara for the period. Then I had math and got some homework. Track took forever and we had to do really anoying runs (football stuff). After track was the highlight of my day... I got to hang out with Sara for the night!! I had lots of fun we played guitar and ate dinner and then went for a walk on the beach. Then I brought Sara home and got to see her "puppy" (Its Huge!! but wicked nice...I got licked and sniffed to death) After I dropped Sara off a got an mocha iced latte with xtra sugar :) And then i went home and did homework. For the rest of the night I will be packing for my vacation. and maybe give Sara a call.

-Tim

Yea so today started out great! I went to Friendlys for breakfast with Jamie, Simas, Stacy, and Josh. It was alot of fun and i hope we do it again, but maybe with everyone goin. I felt really bad for Stacy because she was the only girl in the midst of a group of guys, and she had to deal with some psycho with 7 cups of coffee and a crap load of sugar <<--Me. Needless to say the rest of the day i was wired i couldnt stop moving! Yea but the school day itself was alright i had lunch like an hour after i had breakfast...so i had more sugar... yea and then the day went by kinda slowly. After school we had a short track practice and i went to the girls' track meet. After that i went home and had dinner and i am presenltly waiting for a call from Sara. Anyways yea... im still feeling the effects of that coffee!!

-LaSalle

hmm... yea today was good. I found out i got silver on the National Latin Exam! Then I got most of my averages for classes! whoo all A's so far! Yea so anyway today was kinda long but it was fun i guess. Track went well, but we lost of course. I tried to call Sara but she was sleeping... hopefully ill get 2 see her tommorow. *crosses fingers* Going to breakfast at Friendlys tommorow, should be fun! Then at tonight i went to the mall and bought shit. Yea so anyways my day was that and this was my day...

-LaSalle

So today was a good day. First off i got to go throw discus and shot-put with my brother and his fiance. I got the spin down for discus, but my glide still needs work for shot. After I got back from my field events I went and played tennis with Kate. It was really funny lol. I suck so bad! But my highlight was that i actually beat her one game! She beat me in like 5 games but o well it was fun never the less. I managed to get her to eat a few bugs too lol, but she got her revenge by making me run all over the court for the ball. So yea then i came home and was forced to do yard work...again! But I did manage to snag another ice coffee so im wired. So yea i got alot of sun today and managed to get a sunburn. The rest og my night will be composed of talking to people and hopefully getting in touch with Sara. Hopefully i will get to see her before i go away... i miss her!

-LaSalle

P>S My hair would not look good in pigtails!!! and anyone who is looking for help writing their latin outline or needs help researching their topic, i will be in the library during bubble.